Sorry I havent posted in awhile but I have been feeling really bad.  Dr. Sheth, my nephrologist, called on Thursday to tell me that my lab results were fine.  Not great but at a acceptable level.  The only thing is that I have been feeling horrible.  I cant figure out why though.  For the last couple of days I have been so tired all I have been doing is sleeping.  I try to get up and do things but I have NO energy.  I am glad that I have done my last chemo treatment and I hope that I dont have to do too many radiation treatments.  I should be having an appointment with my doctor this coming week.  I will get blood drawn again to see if my levels have stayed the same.  I will post more later when I am feeling better. 

Well I promised to post my lab results here but they havent called me back.  I am hoping that the results are okay because I really dont want to go into the hospital.  I have had tingling in my left hand and foot.  This could be a sign that my calcium is low.  If it is low then I will have to have an IV treatment.  I dont feel like my hemoglobin is low but I will find out about that tomorrow as well.  I also got my 2 shots today.  Neulasta, to help with my white blood cells and epogin, to help with my red bloods cells.  I am feeling a bit under the weather after recieving those 2 shots.  A tad bit feverish.  Lets hope that I will be feeling better tomorrow.

Today I went to get my final chemo treatment.  But of course nothing went as planned.  I had my blood drawn for lab results to see if I was able to have chemo done. Well the lab lost my tubes, plus another patient's.  We were both forced to wait to see if they could locate our blood.  While we waited my mother and I ate breakfast from the little cafe.  I had fresh fruit and she had a breakfast taco and a blueberry muffin.  We waited and waited.  I have no patience when it comes to waiting for health care.  I blame myself and the years I was on dialysis.  Needless to say we both had to have our blood re-drawn.  SUCKED!  I was suppose to start chemo at 9am but had to wait 2 hours before I could start the treatment.  While I waited for my lab results I began to feel nervous.  I dont know why but I was jerking my legs and had itching around my port sight.  I also had a really bad headache.  Then the worse part yet, I started to feel sick to my stomach.  I told my mom that she needed to find me something to vomit in.  I held my breath until she found the plastic bowl. I think it was the fruit.  It looked okay but the honeydew had a weird after taste.  Once I finished vomiting it was time to start my chemo.  The nurses gave me some medicine for my nausea, which put me out like a light.  I slept for most of my treatment.  I really dont remember leaving the BCC (Breast Care Center).  But when I finally got home I slept for a couple of hours.  But I woke up in time to see my Astros.  They loss, of course.  I feel okay tonight, so far no tingling or weakness. Tomorrow I will get my neulasta and epeogin shots, plus blood work done.  Lets all hope that my levels are at a ("EVA") normal level.  I will post my lab results here tomorrow. 

Today I had an appointment with Dr. Brown.  Everything went well.  We discussed my last treatment of chemo and what I should expect once I am done.  We also talked about when I would start radiation treatments and on where I would prefer to go.  I chose to get my radiation treatments at Methodist instead of returning to Memorial Hermann.  I am still not sure on how many weeks I will have to do radiation but I hope it is a short session.  I am just ready to be done with all this drama.  I want my life back.  I want MY HAIR back!!  LOL  I just want to be able to live a normal life.  Just dont know if that will be possible even after my "pink adventure".  Lets hope that my transplanted kidney behaves after my cancer treatments.  So far my kidney is doing well.  The chemo has helped bring my creatine down from a 5.0 to a 3.7.  I really don't think that it will stay that low after I finish chemo.  I am almost sure that it will go back up.  I am not being negative, I just think that it might be a possiblility. 

Im sorry that I havent written any information on here in awhile.  I have been feeling really bad since my third chemo treatment.  I only lasted a week before I needed to have some sort of secondary treatment.  May 24th was when I had my 3rd chemo treatment.  On May 31st I did a blood test and thats when I found out that my hemoglobin was 7.7.  They wanted me to return the next day to recieve 2 bags of blood.  I am feeling a tad bit better but I still feel tired.  Hopefully by tomorrow I will be feeling better and stronger.  My best friend Jackie is coming in from Dallas to visit.  Its been awhile since I seen her and I am sure it will lift my spirits to have her around.  She has this way of making me laugh when I am down in the dumps.  Even though we both cried when I told her I had breast cancer, she was able to make me laugh a few moments later.  My next chemo treatment will be on June 14th.  That will be the last one and then I will start my radiation treatments.  Still not sure on how many treatments I will have to recieve.  I will be adding some names to the list of people who have sent me "get well" wishes.  Once again, thank you for all the cards and emails. 

Well it has been 2 days since my treatment.  I am feeling OK but I wish I was feeling alot better. My best friend Jackie wants to come visit me this Memorial day weekend. I would love for her to come down but I want to be sure that I will be well.  I have been taking my pills EXACTLY right, so I can be sure that my calcium will not drop. I really dont want to go into the hospital.  I have experiened the tingling in my left hand and left ankle. Once I feel the tingling as intense as before then I will inform my doctors.  This tingling that I am experiencng now is nowhere close to the pain I felt before.  Dont worry I will do what I am suppose to do.  I recieved my Neulasta shot yesterday.  This medicine is to make sure that  my white blood count does not drop.  The only problem with this shot is that it causes joint pain.  Hopefully I wont experience the pain I have felt before.  I really want to spend more time with my family and friends.  I am going to try to make sure that this doesnt get the best of me.  I am gonna do what I can to feel better.  Remember, hearing from you guys puts a smile on my face and gives me the will to carry on.  Take care.  Hope to hear from you soon.

Today I had my 3rd treatment of chemo.  I felt okay this morning but as soon as I was conneceted to the IVs I started feeling sick to my stomach.  They gave me some Ativan to calm my nerves and stomach.  I was out like a light.  I really dont remember much.  Just remember being put into a wheelchair, then put into my mom's car.  I was home in no time.  My mom said that I slept all the way.  I have to go back tomorrow for blood work and if my calicuim(@7.9) and my hemoglobin (@9.8) drop again I will be put in to the hospital for 2 days.  Hopefully I can control both on my own.  I am feeling really sleepy still so I am gonna end this blog.  I will write back when I am able to.  Keep your fingers crossed that I dont have to go into the hospital.  Because you guys know how much I HATE hospitals.

I went to get blood work done today.  The nurse just called me back and told me that my lab work looked really good.  The best part is that my calcium is at a 7.  Its finally rising on its own without me having to get IV treatment.  Since I have done well this time I will have my next chemo on May 24th.  Hopefully my body will be able to handle waiting the regular 3 weeks.  Last time my doctor made me wait an extra week before I was able to get another treatment.  I hope you guys enjoy the updated pictures of me.  The little boy that is in the pictures with me is my cousin Omar.  He is a cutie.  The pretty girl with me in the other pics is my cousin Crystal.  Her and Omar are siblings.  I added some more pictures of my family and friends.  These people are the ones that are helping me through this "adventure" of mine.  Oh I want to thank my Aunt Josie for starting a card campaign in my honor.  Its nice to recieve "get well" cards in the mail.  Well I hope to hear from you guys soon.  Take care. 

Today is the first day in awhile that I have felt OK.  My doctor visit on Thursday went well.  My calcium is still low, around 6 (normal is 12-18) but my doctor didnt want to put me back into the hospital.  He just raised the amount of calcium pills I will take in a day.  I had to go and get a blood test done today to see if my calcium is improving.  I will post the results when I receive them from my doctor.  Now info on the "hair" situation, uh..... there isnt anymore hair.  Yep.  I finally asked my mom to give me a buzz cut.  Now dont think I look like a guy from the 1950's.  I wish I had that much hair.   One good thing though, I look good in scarves and hats.  LOL   I will post photos of my current look in a couple of days.  I will NOT put photos of myself BALD on here.  If you want to see my bald head......come visit me. To be honest, I would love for you guys to come visit me.  I miss being able to go out of town for the weekend.  SO.... come see me!!  BTW, I am so glad that you guys have been leaving me comments.  Your well wishes cheer me up and put a smile on my face.  Keep them coming.

Sorry that I havent written on my site lately but I have had a rough couple of days.  After my second session of chemo I had to recieve 2 IV treatments of calcium and a blood transfusion.  Even though my calcium level raised, it was short lived.  The doctor's office called yesterday and told me that it had dropped again.  It is so low that I might have to go back into the hospital.  If its not one thing, its another.  I will be seeing Dr. Sheth(nephrologist) today at 2:30.  Keep your fingers crossed.......

Recieved my 2nd session of chemo yesterday.  I am feeling OK, not great.  The tingling in my hands and feet has started again.  This is a sign that my calcium is low.  I hope that I dont have to go into the hospital again.  They put me on a new nausea medicine but there is a catch.  I have to take a steroid with it.  I am sure that my joint pain is gonna increase once I start this new medicine.  Oh well, one more thing to deal with.  If you guys have an questions, you can leave me a comment or send me an email.  You can call but Im sure that I might be feeling bad and not want to talk.  I will keep you guys up to date on my progress. 

Aunt Jo Jo and Nancy- thanks for the gifts.  You guys made my week. Love You!!

Well I washed my hair today and I lost another handful of hair.  All I could do was stand in the shower and cry as I watched my hair go down the drain.  I was so afraid to look into the mirror, but some how I was able to look.  I saw myself and began sobbing.  I put on a scarf so I wouldnt have to see my head.  I know that this treatment is good for me, but I put so much value on my appearance that I am not sure I can deal with not having hair.  Tomorrow is my second session of chemo.  At least I hope it will be my second session.  I will have a doctor's appointment before hand and my doctor will decide if I can go through with the treatment.  There is a possibility that he may decide to take me off of chemo.  To be honest I hope that he keeps me on chemo.  I would hate to think that I am losing my hair for NO REASON!! 

Well it has finally happened.  I have a bald spot.  Its on the back of my head.  I guess I rubbed the hair off when I was sleeping.  I really didnt think the fact of losing my hair was gonna freak me out as much.  I hate that I am losing my hair.  I'm so afraid to wash my hair because I KNOW the rest of it will fall out.  SO....I haven't washed my hair since Monday.  Yeah! YUCK! Tomorrow will be D-day, I am washing the last of my hair down the drain.   

I have bought some scarves and a hat but I am VERY uncomfortable going out of the house.  I just have a problem with how I look right now.  I wish I was able to deal with it better.  I really dont think it will get easier with time either.  I wont be done with my treatment until july and then it will take 6-8 weeks for my hair to grow back.  So I wont get my hair back until the end of the year.  AHHHH!!!!!  HAVING CANCER SUCKS!!!!!!